Like any juicy blog, we start this one with a confession…
This is not my first blog.
At one time, I was a moderately successful, fairly well-liked blogger, best known for my prolific posting rate (when I get on a roll, I write a lot) and more infamously, perhaps, for my flirting. Things happened that I may or may not go into on this blog; mostly life and drama and stresses that helped turn what was once an exercise in fun, word craft, and fantasy into something not so enjoyable and a source of stress. That killed my will to post, and I went from writing a few times a day to a few times a week, then a month…and then silence. Though I debated merely revisiting that blog (with no idea if I have any readers left), there are still some situations from the aforementioned hassles that would doubtless rear up again.
And yet, I miss this. I miss putting my thoughts and feelings on a page. I miss having an outlet for my passions and fantasies, a place to practice weaving words, a place to vent frustrations and share elation, a place to flirt and fight and philosophize (does it count as alliteration if it makes the same sound?). So I am going to being anew. I can say from the start that I won’t have the time to write as unceasingly as I once did; my life has changed significantly since those days and thus my ability to put time in at the keyboard has diminished as well. Where I once held myself to a thousand word a day posting rate, here I will be more relaxed. I’ll write when I can write. Some times, this will mean one or two posts a week. Some times, two or three in one day. I have many stresses and deadlines in my day to day life, and I don’t want this blog to be one of them.
I won’t be linking this back to my old blog. There may be a few from that blog that know me well enough outside blogging to know my intent that will know this site, and perhaps a few I never got to connect with at that level that figure it out nonetheless. To those of either category, I ask only this – please respect my choice of anonymity. You are welcome to write me, to ask any details you want, what have you, but let me answer such privately and not here. If what happens here brings back what drove me from there, it will doubtless be the death-knell of blogging for me entirely.
I’ve also decided not to have a public comments section on my regular posts. While I love, *love* to hear from people who feel inspired enough to write me, I’ve decided that I prefer to correspond privately, leaving my pages and thoughts here strictly my own. That said, should something we discuss in private inspire an idea for a post, I promise to seek permission first, and when merited, a link to your own page when I make that post.
Last, though certainly not least, a disclaimer/biography/warning:
First, this will be a mature blog. Not every post will be NSFW, but many will. Though I will try to mark the ones that are, I would advise in general that these be grown-up waters, matey, an ye best be aware. I don’t know why I had to say that like a pirate. Well, yes, I do – to also remind you that this won’t all be super-serious navel-gazing or purely smut. I do actually have a sense of humor and will often exercise it here. But sometimes it *will* be smut, and sometimes it *will* be super-serious.
Second, I am a married man. I am not a monogamous one. Some of my non-monogamy has been with discreet permission, and some not. I will likely have many posts that touch on this, as it is an aspect of my brokenness that has a great deal of influence on my life, my thoughts, and my feelings. If adultery is something you abhor, stop now. I do not wish to offend you further with my explorations therein, nor will I be even slightly swayed by being preached at, lectured, or trolled. I respect, absolutely, your thoughts, I will read what you wish to say, but if you cannot keep it civil or respectful, then I must ask both why you are reading a mature blog in the first place and two why you feel like wasting your energy.
Third, everything you read here will be mine (save quotes or the like, or things specifically and clearly marked so), but the images I may occasionally use are not. Lazy, I know, but my time is limited. As a man who has spent over a decade as a regularly freelancing artist, I know it sucks to find your art on someone’s page. I will try to get permission before I use your art, but if I didn’t, and you don’t want it on my site, just ask and I will quickly remove it or add attribution as we may discuss.
With that, I draw this over-long post to a close; tis past the witching hour, and as I’ve had roughly 13 hours of sleep since hmmmm…last Wednesday? I think its time to drag myself to bed. Tomorrow, I will likely post a few times. I’ve got the day off and an itch to get some ideas on line.
Till then, adieu.